Rebirth
All that vying for attention
Causing chaos and tension;
A brokenness in my mind.
Searching for answers,
Mental illnesses growing like cancers;
Love and tragedy intertwined.
Like a shadow in the night,
All that cunning and that bite.
Creeping in, always back for more.
Build me up oh so sweetly,
Tear me down most discreetly.
Perfect target for an easy score.
Reaching out for a lifeline
Feels like drowning in high tide
Dragging me father and farther from air.
Vivid flashbacks and cold sweats;
Thinking I’ll never make progress,
Not knowing how to lay feelings bare.
Crying on the floor solo,
Visions stuck to me like Velcro.
Worst case scenarios fill my head.
Rituals taking all my time
All-consuming and malign.
Know it’s not rational to feel this dread.
Breaking up with the old me,
Running from all toxicity.
No more allowing myself to hide.
Confronting all of my trauma
Changing behaviors because a
Happy person doesn’t keep it all inside.
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